I am that girl who holds grudges. I can point out when you said something that irritated me 3 years ago when we were driving home from having dinner at that place near our office. I also have been having unrealistic expectation towards people around me, that is why I mostly take my closest ones…
Where or when or how
How to differentiate between a depression or a genuine feeling? How do you know if you are actually sad or unhappy or just depressed or anxious in general? Now that I am a mum, I find it really hard to make time for myself to digest what I am actually feeling, as everything seems to…
Mentally
I am typing this, sitting in Rey’s working space while looking out to my new yard. It is beautiful. Yes, I definitely am taking a pic right now so you guys can see *brb* This is a post I promised myself I would write since like, ages ago. Last year, to be exact. Right now,…
Forgiving myself
I was driving home when my Spotify started playing a song from when I used to date my first boyfriend. Listening to those songs used to send shiver down my spine, but it weirdly got me smiling, reminiscing just how fucking dumb we both were. Looking back, maybe I wouldn’t date me either, so catastrophic!…
Yes I am calling you guys out with this post
I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy last week, but this post won’t be talking about that. Yesterday I had a lovely visit from Maternal & Child Health nurses and for once, I actually believe in myself to raise this bub on our own without having to fly my family here. Here in Oz…
The Moment I Knew
Yeah, I know it is freaking late to write posts about pregnancy while I am now in 30 weeks, but I want to commemorate myself and this journey later on so better late than never! That moment I knew I have always been that girl who never has routinely scheduled period, and after a lot…
How do I say this?
If you ask me to explain it, I won’t be able to do so because to be honest, I don’t understand it myself. It’s the feeling you have 5 minutes after you drive away from home just to start thinking have you turned off gas before you leave, have you turned that hair straightener off, have…
Life is one big, cruel joke.
And I cannot help but laugh, at myself. Just when you thought you have it all just ok, just when you thought you had life figured out, just when you thought you had it all planned out, Life brought you back on your knees and slapped you real hard screaming ‘YOU KNOW FUCKING NOTHING’. …
I wrote this post Dilan the series
Reading Dilan trilogy, I cried because I understand how it felt to lose someone because you loved him too much. I cried harder reading what he felt. I always love wholeheartedly, it is either a blessing or a curse. I never dated someone I did not really love, thus I never had any fuck buddy…
“The Gentle Sadness of Things”
Finite, a concept that is often forgotten although it applies to everything related to us human. An opened carton of your favourite milk, your red lipstick that always gives you enough confidence to conquer the day, that one doll you always slept with throughout your childhood, those will expire, eventually. Although some of them have…