Reading Dilan trilogy, I cried because I understand how it felt to lose someone because you loved him too much. I cried harder reading what he felt. I always love wholeheartedly, it is either a blessing or a curse. I never dated someone I did not really love, thus I never had any fuck buddy…
“The Gentle Sadness of Things”
Finite, a concept that is often forgotten although it applies to everything related to us human. An opened carton of your favourite milk, your red lipstick that always gives you enough confidence to conquer the day, that one doll you always slept with throughout your childhood, those will expire, eventually. Although some of them have…
Surat untuk Fajar
Gelapmu sudah kunanti dari saat senja menyapa. eh, tunggu, itu dulu, gelapmu selalu kunanti sehingga aku akan cepat bertemu lagi dengan sang senja. sehingga waktu akan berputar lebih cepat. sehingga kami akan bertemu lebih cepat. sehingga beban rindu di hati tidak lagi mengikat. Sekarang aku takut ketika kau datang, bersama udara dingin dan tenggelamnya matahari….
Aku harap itu cukup
Aku berusaha mencari simbolisasi tentang keberadaanku disisimu. Pada awalnya, aku ingin menjadi udara. Udara yang selalu kamu hirup setiap saat, selalu membuatmu hidup, selalu ada untukmu walau kadang kamu lupakan. Meresap kedalam setiap keping darahmu, memberikan nyawa untukmu. Namun aku tidak ingin jika aku tak ada, kamu mati. Aku ingin kamu tetap hidup bahkan…
To Each His Own
This post is dedicated to you. You, a boy who has to lie to his parents about why you don’t seem to have girlfriend all this time. Who has to smile awkwardly whenever your cousins set you up with women from their offices, college, any place they can think of. A girl who has to…
Still my favourite muse
You know, whenever I try to write something sad, I am reminiscing the moments when you broke my heart and threw it on the floor. I don’t know why; I think no one ever fucked me up like you. It has always been you. I am feeling like giving you a trophy for ‘the biggest…
Nikah Kapanpun – None of Your Goddamn Biz, People.
Belakangan gue sering banget ngeliat pembahasan soal nikah. Nikah muda, nikah telat, nikah ketuaan, kebelet nikah, bahkan fenomena ga nikah-nikah atau memutuskan untuk ga pernah nikah sekalipun. Kayanya semua berawal dari anak salah satu uztad terkenal yang menikah muda, dan #NetizenBerkomentar banyak karena yang bersangkutan sendiri banyak raise statement-statement mengundang diskusi seperti ‘daripada dosa, mending nikah’….
Thank you, 2016.
Thank you for the chances, 2016. You have given me a lot of chances for me to be better. To improve. Looking back, I don’t even know who I was in the beginning of the year. And now look where I am. I am stronger than I ever was before. I stand for my own…
You promised destiny, but somehow you cannot stand the distance
This is how it feels knowing the expired date is close behind. I cannot ask you to promise that things will be just fine, because I know it wont. Things never work out for me, and I just found out that you are not an exception. I wish I had an exception. I always screw…
Hey baby
there is so much I want to say to you like your question about what is it about me who is so feisty, so full of opinions, so straightforward, can go mute when confrontation approaches? what is it about me who can be so brave on words under real life but so scared of talking…